What can i do to make people like me? People dont like people who self pity.

Earned $4 yesterday! $19/week. I can totally live off that

I wasnt able to get a job before. How in the world will i be able to get a job now. What can i possibly do. I need income which i dont have. My savings will go down really quick without income. What do i do?

Well i got a chair in my room. The spinny office chair was hurting my back. I was going to buy a second hand one but cant do that now. Mom lent me a puffy chair from downatairs. So now i could just stay upstairs all the time if i had a microwave and mini fridge (bigger than the 1 i have.) Also maybe occcasionally go outside for health. Downstairs to get packages. Also need an at home job….

Things most people do are alien to me. Like, go see a friend? I have never done that.

So i wont inundate my main account with negative posts, i will be posting them on here! Yay! So, follow if you want screeching about how pathetic i am. Maybe other posts, idk. As long as the wifi actually works for this old phone, its suddenly actually letting me post for some reason

Now im totally mooching because i dont have any income coming in. And there is even less chance now i can get a job.

well that was just a relapse. i may come over here from time to time if i feel really bad, but since most people are so over me and couldn’t care less about what I feel or do, except maybe the ones who followed me over there and a few others, there really isn’t much point in staying here and talking about my ‘feelings’. or whatever. i may just leave it here to vent if i have no other place. which is usually the case but… i’m trying to make Tumblr into a more positive space and not just dumping all my bad feelings on it. 

is there anyone who can help me? tumblr is the only place i can turn to. you’re the only ones i can talk to.

I didn’t want to be one of THOSE people who just give up and don’t keep going and let life crush your spirit… 

but of course, me being so weak and sensitive and extreme introverted, what did i think was going to happen?